Ranting

I love my mama. I really do. It's amazing what she's able to endure - physically, mentally, and emotionally. She's the most selfless lady; she's smart; she's funny; she's lovely. She's just wonderful.

But good lord, she can drive a daughter crazy. Sometimes it's like she destroys her health just because she can, just because she knows it's hers to destroy. I keep watching her fall apart more and more, and people keep saying, "why don't you do something - just cut back on your smoking? just change your diet a little." But she never does, and she never will.

Why doesn't she want to get better?